Inspiration

I have been so uninspired for almost a year now and I don't know how to get the juices going again. Last April I had what was supposed to be a simple routine surgery that had gone horribly wrong. The Doctor severed an artery and I bled out so much that I needed a transfusion. I spent a week in NICU then went home for a week and ended up in the ER again having to have another surgery and spent another week in the hospital. When I left the hospital I had an open wound that took almost 3 months to close. I temporarily lost use of my left leg.I had to pick it up to move it. They brought in a Neurologist to see if they could help me walk again. My butt and legs had swelled up so badly,that Honey had to buy giant stretchy pants for me to wear home. I was miserable to say the least. Just this past December I had to have another surgery(the third in 9 months) to repair a softball sized hole that was a result of an infection from the first surgery. I have been out of work for almost a year now. At first I was happy to be able to stay home and create to my hearts content but it has yet to happen. I have gotten great ideas in the middle of the night,one of which was to make resin jewelry. Honey went out and bought me molds,resin and everything else to get started. I haven't even opened the resin. I wanted an Embroidery Machine that would digitize my own designs and for Christmas Honey bought me one. It is as if all my desire has vanished. I've seen shows and read articles about people that have had transplants and felt certain things about them change. I often wonder if that could happen with blood transfusions. I try to journal any and every idea I get in hopes that it will stir something inside me. I get depressed over the loss of my artistic mojo. It hasn't limited itself to just creating art but also in my desire to write. I wonder if anyone else has ever had this problem. I am open to any suggestions.