Inspiration

I have been so uninspired for almost a year now and I don't know how to get the juices going again. Last April I had what was supposed to be a simple routine surgery that had gone horribly wrong. The Doctor severed an artery and I bled out so much that I needed a transfusion. I spent a week in NICU then went home for a week and ended up in the ER again having to have another surgery and spent another week in the hospital. When I left the hospital I had an open wound that took almost 3 months to close. I temporarily lost use of my left leg.I had to pick it up to move it. They brought in a Neurologist to see if they could help me walk again. My butt and legs had swelled up so badly,that Honey had to buy giant stretchy pants for me to wear home. I was miserable to say the least. Just this past December I had to have another surgery(the third in 9 months) to repair a softball sized hole that was a result of an infection from the first surgery. I have been out of work for almost a year now. At first I was happy to be able to stay home and create to my hearts content but it has yet to happen. I have gotten great ideas in the middle of the night,one of which was to make resin jewelry. Honey went out and bought me molds,resin and everything else to get started. I haven't even opened the resin. I wanted an Embroidery Machine that would digitize my own designs and for Christmas Honey bought me one. It is as if all my desire has vanished. I've seen shows and read articles about people that have had transplants and felt certain things about them change. I often wonder if that could happen with blood transfusions. I try to journal any and every idea I get in hopes that it will stir something inside me. I get depressed over the loss of my artistic mojo. It hasn't limited itself to just creating art but also in my desire to write. I wonder if anyone else has ever had this problem. I am open to any suggestions.

Cupid Draw back Your Bow

Happy Lover Day!
I can't believe I haven't posted in like 12 days. It was a long hard 12 days,but I didn't have Internet access at home and the time I spent sponging up grocery store Wi-fi was used checking e mail. Finally! I am back on line. "I promise Oh Internet Access Gods to never take you for granted again." I have pictures to post,but they are on the lap top and I am way too lazy to switch over. That's the bad thing about using both a Mac and a PC it's not always simple switching over.
I hope everyone was given some L-O-V-E today. I got a card and chocolate dipped Fortune Cookies (I'm a sucker for a Fortune Cookie and yes, I keep the fortunes) the best gift I got was the gift of time! Yep, good ole time. Even though the Cubs are well past the age of being tied to the apron strings Honey sometimes feels the need to drag them along when I want to do something.
This morning as I was doing the breakfast dishes a slight breeze wafted in and for a moment I felt like I was back home standing on the beach. sigh.
Where are the ruby red slippers when you need them? By the time I was done with dishes I knew I wanted to spend the day outside and NO, yard work wouldn't suffice. I remembered that Mesa Art Center has an Art walk every Saturday and it's free!
I hurried up the kitchen chores,went and got dolled up and begged Honey to get dressed and take me into Mesa. The Cubs all had something to do so he couldn't drag them along (thankfully). So I got to spend time with Honey doing something I like and that I know he's not a big fan of and never once did he complain. It was chilly and we walked arm and arm giggling away taking in the sights and sounds of downtown. To me that was the best gift, oh and he got my Internet access back too. I am a truly spoiled girl sometimes.

Happy Ground Hog Day.

Isn't it funny the things we suddenly remember from elementary school? This morning I remembered it was Ground Hog day. I asked Big Cub & Little Cub if they thought ol Phil had seen his shadow. They both looked at me like I was crazy. I mentioned it to a Lady at the store asking her if she knew and even she looked at me like I was crazy. Thank goodness for NPR or else I'd never sleep. After spending a week at Super Sister's place Worker-sitting and lounging in front of the idiot box watching DIY shows for hours on end I came home inspired to do something with this place. I hate when that happens. Champagne tastes on champiple budget! Today the Big Cub took me to a big box store and a new craft store looking for ideas that I could do myself with things I lready owned. Well the result was.... I need to own new stuff! Honey is going to love that one after begging him to buy me everything and anything it takes to create with resin,and well 3 months later and all I've done is move the stuff from one shelf to another. oh woe is me. Middle Cub asked if I was remodeling and, I said yes, in which his reply was "what has sparked this interest?" in translation it means " oh God what is she going to make me do" that's my boy,always worrying ahead.